DO YOU...
ever have to do fast shopping?
need ur friends to rush with u here and there?
ever have to 受气 when u're out?
have somebody unreasonable in ur family?
have a family member that can't even wash the utensils he/she used?
feel feverish when u're pissed?
ever feel like living alone?
know when you're no longer that special to someone?

some yes.. some no.
whatever it is..
i'm damn pissed off today.
however, i enjoyed my time with dtwins celebrating ping's bday.
i hope she did enjoy herself with us.
and now she's enjoying with other friends (:
when i was out, wanting to go buy shoes..
i have to ask for permission whether i can don't cook or not.
mom jolly well agreed because she loveS outside food.
dad? i dunno wth he's giving me attitude for over the phone.
saying, then you buy dinner for mom. i'm working at changi.
so? why that attitude la?!
cannot say properly ?
something i really CANNOT stand is ppl giving attitude.
no matter who it is.
at that time was gg to be 4pm.
we went down to PS to get some stuff.
then fetch ping to habour front.
den ting, shan and i went to somerset.
to get shoes.
anw, i got my everlast shoes.
i like them.
if only i can get both colours.. ^^"
very quickly, we rush to go home.
shan went off to continue celebrate poly friend's bday.
while i took the train alone back home.
the train was really packed. -.-
got better when i found myself a seat.
a seat that is left empty for quite some time.
i saw it, but i waited. no old ppl want to sit.
den i standing in front of it,
ppl squeezing me just to alight..
no choice, i sit.
it's damn good to be seated when it's so packed.
reached clementi around 7.05pm.
b4 reaching clementi, called back home.
wanted to let mom know i'll be a lil late.
and guess wad? dad picked up the phone.
when somebody picked up the phone, i called out for mom.
suddenly a man voice said this.
i'm back from changi, u're not back yet.
attitude again.
i replied, then? so what? ask mom take the phone.
so he passed her the phone.
i asked mom, dad got buy dinner for u?
she said nope.
he's so early back home, dun even know how to call back.
is it really so difficult to call back home?
-.-
so i'm back home late, it's all my fault lo.
pissed.
when back home, straight went to bath..
came out saw the basin damn lots of things to wash.
pots, utensils, bowls.
in this house, only my hands can do washing.
is washing the utensils u use so difficult?
don't tell me.. ohh.. tired after work.
tired meaning u don't have to wash?
like this... i want to be a super busy business woman le.
i leave everything there, wait for ppl wash for me.
great huh? -.-
washing of clothes, hanging clothes to dry..
also me.
what else?
all "maria" do de, i do.
i dunno why when i'm angry, i tend to do things faster.
really is faster de..
dunno issit the same for other ppl.
i'm dieing to get older.
can i grow older faster?
i don't mind being even more mature
in terms of looks or thinking.
i just want to get myself independent.
financially or mentally, anything.
i just wish to depend on myself for my own living.
do you have such thinking?
i have this thinking is not really because of this incident la.
maybe only PARTLY.
but this is really my wish.
i know it'll be granted in another 2 or 3 yrs time?
shall wait.
i'm feeling tired after almost a day out.
have not even study a chapter for this coming sat paper.
and tmr's more things are waiting for me to do.

sometimes i don't know what more to give.
anw, thanks dtwins!