i'm pissed!
imagine u put effort in cooking a meal..
den u're hungry already.
but u still have to serve ppl dinner FIRST
b4 u urself can start eating.
serve the rice with dishes on the plate..
then heat the soup, serving it on a bowl.
serve it right in front of them.
ppl eat finish at least half le,
then u can eat..
some may think it's natural that
the child serve the parents.
so yes, i did.
i serve them almost every single day.
then dad eat halfway went out.
soup just left there, untouched.
where he go?
he went to drink with friends!
-.-
can't he be more appreciative to finish
everything b4 gg out?
he know he cannot drink because of hep B.
then he still keeps drinking.. sigh.
relatives scolded / talk to him..
nth gets into his head.
i don't understand why he still behave this way
when mom is already sick.
then wad if some day his hep B gets worse
due to drinking (and smoking) ?
then tell me wad will happen?
i'm suppose to take care of 2 adults?
sigh...
why issit so difficult to take care of ur own health?

if i ever have a choice, do you think i will want
to "work at home" ?
i cannot do many things i used to,
i cannot do things that i wish to.
despite giving up the things that i wish to do,
they DON'T appreciate me.
they treat everything as 理所当然.
same goes to my bro.
every time i cook dinner, there will be soup.
mom always will ask me to leave a share for him.
yes, i did too.
then...
every night i got to stay up to wait for him to
come back from work, then serve him soup.
if i don't serve him, the soup will be wasted.
cuz it's either he pour it down the basin
or just leave it there.
ytd night, i waited for him to serve him.
and guess what he said to me?
"烦 leh.. next time don't cook soup for me."
-.-
drink soup like will kill him.
such ppl drives me mad.

but no matter what,
these ppl are my family members.
(that's why it hurts more)