saturday-
early afternoon i reached hosp.
dtwins came to visit my mom in the evening.
bro's gf's whole family came too.
i stayed overnight at the hospital..
everything was okay..
below is a card from dtwins to my mom..
thanks for coming to visit my mom <3

sunday-
went home in the afternoon after having lunch with dad.
met up with dear,
went to hospital in the evening.
we had dinner with dad then go to visit mom.
at 9+ went home, as dear and i still got to work.
dad went home too because his back is pain and can’t stay overnight.

Monday-
i went to work.
straight after work, I travelled to the hosp.
bro took leave to accompany mom.
who knows when I reached there,
bro and dad told me that mom’s condition isn’t good.
need to be transferred to the Intermediate Care Area (ICA)
mom was having high fever and heartbeat and BP is high.
doctors suggested to put a “tube” into my mom’s neck area
in order to observe her further.
after asking my mom sign some papers.
they went ahead with the “small procedure” in putting the tube.
I heard my mom’s mournful cry..
and who knows.. things got worse.
mom got difficulties in breathing.
i see a lot of nurses running here and there..
getting “tools” in to help my mom breath again..
i was really shock…
inside me, i was thinking…
did i hear/see wrongly? my mom is having breathing difficulty?
next, i see mom got pushed to the operation theatre..
when i see her got pushed out from the room.. I started weeping bitterly…

I was really really worried and upset.
really really scared.
took me a longgg time to settle down
and wait for my mom to come out.
all the doctors saw me weeping..
do you think they feel guilty?
at that point of time, I was really blaming those doctors
who operated on my mom..
but after I settled down, I did not think so much le..
i know I cannot blame them.
i jus felt very upset that my mom have to suffer.
after everything, mom got pushed back to her ward.
for the next few days she can’t talk nor eat.
me and bro stayed overnight at the hosp.
i manage to catch some slp from 1am-2am and 6am-8am.
from 3-5am, mom was having dialysis for the first time.
me and bro was with her.
can see from mom’s expression that she’s in great pain when the needles went in..
but we’re left with no choice, this is the only way to help her..

i just came home and i wrote email to my supervisor to get approval for my leave.
this is wad my LO ask me to do.
i must get “black and white”.
-.-
now I’m gg to bath, and go back to hosp le.

thanks to those who cared.. u know who you are.

i don't wish to find myself more disappointments, so i'll not harbour any expectations on them le, at least for now...