i hate working..
because i hate being busy.
because of money we work..
because of work, we lose out so much time.
other than work, there is so much more things for us to do.
i'm always feeling that time is not enough.
too many things, too little time.
i guess things will get better when i stop working
and return back to school!

mom has been losing out a lot of hair.
i can see her hair here and there in the house.
not 5 or 10 strands only..
i can't really say how much is it.
but it's very obvious that she is losing hair...
i don't know what to do and i'm worried.
i feel everyday i'm worrying.
worrying about my family,
myself and other stuffs.
i haven't reach 20 (not yet)
and i've been worrying so much..
it's really tiring.. but i don't know how can i take a break.
how to take a break when time is always running OUT.

many ppl say i look very cheerful.
i guess i am too..
but there are also times when i cannot be cheerful.
i feel happy very easily.
but i can feel upset easily too.
i'm full of emotions huh? (good or bad?) ^^"
it's easy to be happy..
but it's not easy to become happy when u're upset.
ahhhhhhh~~
whatever it is...
this is still my life.
part and parcel... blah blah blah.

i can only take a DEEEEPPPP breath right now...
and let it ALL out.
:)

anyway, today went out with my mom and aunty.
supposed to go to msia with dtwins and 2 of our sec sch teacher.
but i didn't go in the end...
as both mom & i need to see doc.
today was the 2nd time i'm receiving this PAINFUL treatment
from the chinese doctor.
it's the treatment for the "pimple" at my left thigh.
just last thursday, my jiejie (a colleague of mine, Em)
brought me to a doc. western doc, at Admiralty.
i showed the doc the "pimple" and he told me it's a cyst.
cyst??? i've nv come across such a word.
anyway, he simply told me he cannot do anything to it.
no medication to eat/apply.
i was advised not to touch it and keep oberving it.
whether it becomes biggerrr or smallerr.
if it gets bigger and painful, cyst removal will require a small surgery.
so now i'm praying hard it will just go away lah~
ok, anyway.. back to the chi doc.
it was last week that i showed the chi doc abt it.
and this week i told him the western doc advised not to touch it.
he told me.. "yes, they cannot do anything"
ok, i guess he is trying to tell me only he can do smth to it.
the treatment is called "dian yao"
it's by lighting up a strand of "medicine",
then they just poke it into my thigh.
it's like poking a MINI cigarrette onto my thigh.
last week poked 6 times.
this week i don't know.. it was too painful, so i didn't manage to count :D
okok, i just hope for my cyst to be gone!
yawnnns..

in the afternoon, i went out with my mom & aunty.
from 4pm go out till 10pm! =S
first we went to bugis, less than 1.5hrs we left.
we went to Little India.
Aunty brought us there as she thought there were a lot of
batik clothes that mom would like to buy.
there were a lot of cars there,
i guess it's because of their lightings ceremony.
yep, we first went to Mustafa!
it's my FIRST time there.
nothing much there but i must say the things there is really cheap!
i bought my adidas perfume @ $9 :P
dad and bro told me is FAKEEE one~~ sian can.
but no choice, already bought.
i told them the most i spray more laaa.. hahahaha~
our last stop was Woodlands, Causeway point.
same thing, there were a lot of cars. probably because it's Saturday.
We did not buy anything much lohh..
spent most of the money on Taxi only~~

YAWNSSS...
i'm feeling so so tired now
as i did ironing from 10++ till 12.45am.
i blogged because i'm waiting for my hair to dry :D
hair not dry yet but i'm dozing off as i blog =S
ok, i will stop here!
no more energy alreadyy ^^"

goodnight and take care ppl.