i should have given up on him long ago...
why do i still bother to keep persuading him,
trying to make him change for the better?
maybe because i cannot tolerate the way he is living now.
he is throwing money onto things that are not necessary,
which are harmful to his life.
i really can't tolerate it.
but i have no choice.
i hate him for giving me such a bad impression on him.
i hate him for being so damn stubborn,
and that he thinks that he is always right.
i hate myself for growing up,
to know what is good and what is bad.

i didn't know living can be so tiring, until now.
i feel especially tired when i'm not being appreciated.